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From darkness to light

In a foul mood I went banging doors and slamming things. Yes, I do such absurd things or sometimes just yell. It takes the stress away. And I get back to normal, Nowadays I just yell ‘Krishnaaaa’ and then calm down. But today I didn’t do any yelling. I was too stressed to do even that. No, nothing very critical. Just that water supply in our building sometimes plays errant. No water and I get tensed up. I start imagining all sorts of troubles eventually leading to my bad karma and my ‘sufferings’.

Yes, I tend to be melodramatic.

Today I didn’t yell. Nor did I blame my karma. Today my position was of a warrior who has accepted defeat even before the war has begun.

I went about folding clothes, arranging cupboards when I looked around and saw the lighted ‘diyas’ at the altar.

I love the sight of diya (mind you the oil diyas not the wax candles). I love the flames playing around in a dark room. Somehow it lifts my mood up, makes me calm and makes me believe that there is hope.

I am immediately reminded of the line, Tamosama jyotirgamay’ lead me from darkness to light. It also means coming out of ignorance to knowledge.  Always darkness is linked to ignorance. Lying down at night when sleep eludes, even the simplest problem looks gargantuan.  The same problem in the day time is minuscule.

I remember a similar prayer sung in school, ‘Lead kindly light amid encircling gloom’. The essence is the same, leading from ignorance to knowledge, from darkness to light. I have not had chance to study other religions but I am sure others too speak of the same truth. After all what is religion… its a means to advance to knowledge and erase the ignorance from our hearts.

Lord Krishna in the Bhagvad Gita Chapter 10 Text 11 says:

tesam evanukampartham
aham ajnana-jam tamah
nasayamy atma-bhava-stho
jnana-dipena bhasvata
Out of compassion for them, I, dwelling in their hearts, destroy with the shining lamp of knowledge the darkness born of ignorance.
In this shloka too darkness has been compared to ignorance.
We may think we are elevated, that we are ‘gyanis’ the knower of all truths but the fact is that we know very little. And that little itself is enough to make us puffed up with pride. But those who are humble enough to keep on serving the Lord come what may;  He himself lights the lamp of knowledge in his heart.
Such a simple formula.
So do I have the endurance to carry on against all odds? The illnesses, the material discomforts, the sudden doubts of faith? That time can only tell. Till then I will look on to the lamps in the altar and bring courage to the heart.
Tamso maa jyotirgamaya….Lead kindly light…..

 

 

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I was, I am, I will

na tv evaham jatu nasam na tvam neme janadhipah na caiva na bhavisyamah sarve vayam atah param

This shloka from Chapter 2 of the Bhagvad Gita (Text 12) always gives me goose bumps. Why? Because this shloka reiterates the eternality of the soul as also the fact that we are individuals which were, are and will be living….always. TRANSLATION: Never was there a time when I did not exist, nor you, nor all these kings; nor in the future shall any of us cease to be. I always fall in love with life again when I read this shloka. It fills me with energy.

The mere fact that we are not supposed to be machines but we are individuals with similar characteristics and yet we have something special fills me with joy.

This shloka reiterates the fact that e as spirit souls will never perish. The individual soul was always present and present today too. If lucky tomorrow it will go back to Godhead and there too will retain its individuality while serving the Lord. Very often people get afraid to be involved in bhakti fearing that they will lose their interests their passions. Bu the fact is all the passions and interests can be used for bhakti. I like to write, so I write, I like to be with children, so I teach them. Simple. Use your talents in the processes of bhakti. Simple. I remember as a young girl telling my mother, ‘Don’t ask me to do as the others do…I have my own individuality’ 😛 Maybe in my heat I knew that I am individual eternal soul then too 😀

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