From ignorance to light

Life throws up surprises every now and then. Like you are doing good in your job and suddenly the business shuts shop. Or you are a businessman but you suffer multiple losses. Life can be so unpredictable. Like you are happy, you have finished with your responsibilities and you want to relax and suddenly you discover that you have a lump which is not just a lump.

No, this is not about me.

When I read blogs I often feel it unrealistic. We write about the urban upper class but what about the towns and the villages. Isn’t there a story there.

What about common life, why has it become so uncommon?Quotefancy-1520040-3840x2160

As I said earlier there is so much to write about in the mundane.

I think about life, the ordinary struggles and the shocks and the surprises we keep getting now and then and I want to unravel the mystery.

I know a lady who has raised her two children singlehandedly. her husband is somewhere. I do not know whether her husband was an alcoholic or abusive or both. I never asked. I didn’t want to hurt her anymore than what she was already hurting. But heard that her husband used to come now and then demand money, take and leave.Until one day her son now grown up and earning, threw him out and threatened him.

Out of curiosity I had asked her son once, why your mother tolerates him. He just replied mother can never refuse beggars.

And then it hit me. She was not tolerating him, neither was she doing it as a sense of responsibility. She was doing it as a duty. the duty of a human not a wife; of helping those who are needy. was she right, was she wrong? I am not going to judge her but I realised that every scene has so many angles.

Life when it wants just to show some angles, it throws some surprises. And then the Lord, the witness watches how we deal with it. I look back at my journey from March 31st 2004 and see how I have evolved and with all humility I bow down and hope that I have evolved well. It was that day I discovered that I had pituitary adenoma which subsequently lead me to partial darkness and the knowledge that I have to be on support of external hormones but it has led me to an absolutely delightful journey of self discovery. A discovery which earlier I may not have embarked upon earlier. Have I been good or have I been bad, I will not judge but the fact is that today I am grateful that I had the chance to see so many ups and downs to discover myself.

Someone very dear is going through the same trials. I just hope that she too takes this opportunity to discover self.

The shloka in my mind:

tesam evanukampartham aham ajnana-jam tamah
nasayamy atma-bhava-stho jnana-dipena bhasvata
Out of compassion for them, I, dwelling in their hearts, destroy with the shining lamp of knowledge the darkness born of ignorance. (BG 10.11)







Filed under free writing, Lessons, personal, realization

10 responses to “From ignorance to light

  1. Loved this post so much Bhagyashree! There is so much uncertainty in this world. But this “going viral” generation does not really understand mundane. Don’t you think so?

    I salute your bravery and the lady’s too.

    I sometimes fear disease. Can you give a shloka for that?

    • Thanks Meena. Though we are becoming tech savvy, we are losing touch with our roots.
      To my knowledge there is no shloka for fear from diseases in the gita but a very nice shloka is 4.10
      man-maya mam upasritah
      bahavo jnana-tapasa
      Puta mad-bhavaji agatah
      Being freed from attachment, fear and anger, being fully absorbed in Me and taking refuge in Me, many, many persons in the past became purifled by knowledge of Me—and thus they all attained transcendental love for Me.

  2. Anagha Yatin

    It is the challenges in life that throw light on hidden treasures; strength of soul is one such.
    Appreciate your resilience Bhagyashree.

  3. What a post ! What a post indeed ! The value of this immensely enlightening post can’t be evaluated. Take a bow Madam.

  4. KP

    It is a very nice post.It is a common attribute of humans not to think of God when there are minor problems in life.It is only when struck by unmanageable crisis(es) and that too when all efforts to overcome have failed and are rendered helpless with no devices available that he/she turns to God.Gajendra fought the crocodile for 1000years depending on its own strength and when it could no longer resist,it surrendered to God stopping all its efforts.Draupadi too struggled initially again Dushasan till she had no strength and let go her hands from her sari and lifted them in total surrender to Krishna.It is only after complete surrender God hastened to their succour.
    The self discovery starts when afflicted by unbearable difficulty to most except the fortunate few who by virtue of their karma turn to God without any provocation.
    I liked this post with an apt Sloka very much.

    • catur-vidha bhajante mam
      janah sukrtino ‘rjuna
      arto jijnasur artharthi
      jnani ca bharatarsabha

      O best among the Bharatas [Arjuna], four kinds of pious men render devotional service unto Me—the distressed, the desirer of wealth, the inquisitive, and he who is searching for knowledge of the Absolute.(7.16)

      So it is not just the distressed who seek the truth

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